When your greatest joy has now become a dreaded sorrow, what are you supposed to do?

Wow, so decisions that affect your year can happen just like that. When you can only make a commitment to either your logic or your emotions, which do you follow? It's my senior year. What do I want to remember about it? except it's probably already too late to change my decision now. I fervently pray for love and fellowship to enter me from heaven. I have strayed too far away. None of these things will matter to me later in life, but they matter for me now...

God, your Love sustains me - my energy and will never was, nor will it ever be enough.

I watched a tree today. I was eating my oranges and I watched the tree. The leaves were yellowing and hanging down - like the flags in our commons... each a different shade, saluting individuality. In band, we strive for uniformity. As the leaves fall, I will fall too.